All the world's a stage,

And all the men and women merely players.

They have their exits and their entrances;

And one man in his time plays many parts.

Did u ever love me?

"I'm just a Soul Survivor" - Young Jeezy feat Akon, 'Soul Survivor'

"I'm getting tired of you pushing me 'round.Dragging me down" - The Veronicas, 'Leave Me Alone'

"Don't want nobody to bring me back to life" - Amerie, 'I just died'

"We'd see the day when nobody died" - Nickelback, 'If everyone cared'

"But instead im gettin locked up" - Akon, 'locked up'

LD Sec 4 farewell todae. So damn sad man. The year has passed so bloody fast! Damn man. Can't believe it.

Anyways, Kayleigh is staying wif me for a couple of days cuz her parents and her little bro went to KL. Since she's homeless at the moment, she is now my homeless homie, as she puts it.

Who would have thought that you would do this? You act innocent but you're not. Pity, I'm the only one who realises this.

"Did ya think about me being half awake and crying,
Lying on the floor and waiting for the break of day
Didn't think about tearing me apart,
At any moment in the night you could have tried to make it right." -The veronicas, 'Did ya think'

Broken.
Depressed.
Upset.
Non-Believer.
Questions.
No answers.
What am I suppose to do now?

Could you kill me now to spare me the pain of being hurt?

I don't want to get hurt.
I don't want to get burnt.
I don't want to hear all the lies.
I don't want to be caught in the web of deceit.
I don't want to cry.
I don't want to be alone.

Heavily Broken by The Veronicas

Everyday I sit here waiting
Everyday just seems so long
And now I've had enough of all the hating
Do we even care, it's so unfair
Any day it'll all be over
Any day there's nothing new
And now I just try to find some hope
To try and hold onto
And it starts again
It'll never end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
It just seems like I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do

Almost giving up on trying
Almost heading for a fall
And now I'm screaming
I've gotta keep on fighting
But then again
It doesn't end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
It just seems like I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do
And there's nothing I can do

Feels like I'm drowning
I'm screaming for air (Screaming for air)
Louder I'm crying
And you don't even care
I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Could you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move (What can I do)
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken

"We can't control fate. If we could, the world would be a fucked up place."

Hope.
Faith.
Fading into the darkness.
Love.
Life.
No longer has meaning.
Death.
Pain.
In everyday life.
Fear.
Fate.
Somehow are combined.

If I gave you the truth, would it keep you alive?

I'm beaten down again, I belong to them
Beaten down again, I've failed you
I'm weaker now my friend, I belong to them
Beaten down again, I've failed you - Seether, "truth"

Sumone up there hates me. Put me a motherfucking class where my grades will slip even more! Where all my enemies are. Well, some of em. Don't you (the one up there hu hates me) realise that I'll be worse?! That I'll feel worse?! But you don't care do you?!

Now this is not the end. It is not even the beginning of the end. But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning. - Sir Winston Churchill, Speech in November 1942

Deep into a dying day
I took a step outside an innocent heart
Prepare to hate me fall when I may
This night will hurt you like never before - Nightwish, "Wish I had an angel"

"Hope is a waking dream" -Aristotle (384 BC - 322 BC), from Diogenes Laertius, Lives of Eminent Philosophers

Happy Bdae Lizee!


Praising what is lost,
Makes the remembrance dear.
-William Shakespeare, "All's Well that Ends Well", Act 5 scene 3

We do not die because we have to die;
we die because one day, and not so long ago,
our consciousness was forced to deem it necessary.- Antonin Artaud (1896 - 1948)


With these words from thee,
I shall be set free.

The whole year 11 thinks I'm bloody dead thanx to Oscar's big mouth! And Loic actually got upset, according to Kay.... Cause I seem to be a nice gurl.... Damn man... I am NOT dead.... No wonder I keep gettin asked how heaven's like.... The answers to all ur questions are below. Enjoy!

Heaven is a really nice place although God is a little behind in technology... He just installed cable.
Hell isn't so hot now, Satan is installing air-con..... And he's gotten fatter.... Sumthin abt gluttony being a sin and wad not....

Apparantly, DannyB finds me hot and sxc thanx to Kayleigh. Kayleigh also happened to tell Oscar that she was at her cuz's (me) funeral last nite so if Loic or Danny go online, they're gonna get the shock of their lives. She only told tt to Oscar so tt he would stop stalking her. Just cause she's the only gurl who's said NO to him doesn't mean tt he should annoy her every now and then.... He's bloody stalking her I swear....

I stayed over at Kay's yesterdae, her playstation doesn't like us very much. Either that or it didn't like the movie we were watching....

Oscar, word of advice, never sleep in the same room as Kayleigh, even if you're on the bottom bunk. Sumhow, god noes what she was dreaming of, she kept tossing and turning and talking and kicking. She kicked me and I kicked her back. And she was still asleep. I have this theory tt if there was an earthquake or fire or tsunami, she would never wake up. Seriously.


A single tear

Standing at the edge of a cliff.
My remaining strength is what holds me back.
The memories of the days when I was happy.
When things were so much simpler.
But I'm slowly losing the strength.
Bit by bit.
A cold gust of wind blows by.
I'm still here.
But I'm closer to falling.
And when I do,
there'll be no one to catch me.
No one to catch me as I fall.
As the saying goes,
Even Angels Fall......


A drop of blood

The Eve of Hari Raya. So much to do..... (Random)

Another story.....

Another meaningless poem....

Looking in the mirror,
can't believe what I see.
The tears flowing from my eyes,
show the pain I feel inside of me.
I can't believe it.
I'm caught in fear.
And yet all the pain I feel,
is caught in a single tear.

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