All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players.
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts.
Sunday, July 31, 2005 / 3:38 PM
UnwantedUnlovedUnbelieveableUnawareUncertainUncommonUndeceiveUndauntedUndeniableUnderratedUnderstandingUnearthUnforgivingUnhappyUnfulfilledUncomfortableAll of which equals to me
Friday, July 29, 2005 / 1:20 AM
We did it! We blew them away! Congrats you guys! We all worked hard and our hard work paid off! Sure a couple of things happened but hey, the audience didn't noe. Nice work Yi Ping for the keys thing. You too Chrys! Sarah E aka Ma, the damn lights! It didn't blackout! But hey, it worked out in the end! And I can still remember the line at the 2nd last scene. You noe, the boxers one, wif the circus and rodeo and mummy and wad not. "Those aren't Sarge's. Trust me, I'd noe." Made me laugh...Thanx Crew! You guys rock! G,Renee,Yan,Jackie and Ben- thanx for everything! Seriously!
Drama nite rocked! Wishing ya'll the best in life! Ya'll deserve it!
Rock on LD gurls!"We're actors - we're the opposite of people." - Tom Stoppard
Wednesday, July 27, 2005 / 3:43 PM
2 more days till Drama nite!Why doesn't the pain go away?Why doesn't my heart have anything to say?
Monday, July 25, 2005 / 3:41 PM
Do you believe in magic?
Saturday, July 23, 2005 / 6:23 PM
Today is Health and Wealth Day. How lame is that? Didn't go for anything cause I had LD. We had Yen till 1. If you weren't there before lunch then let me tell you this, you better pray that it never happens again. A certain person went off to buy food cause she was hungry. So we did all the scenes with a stand-in. That was fine till 1 hour later when she didn't show up! I was, by then, pissed. You see, before she went for her food break, she wasn't paying attention and kept missing her bloody cues. So obviously I was pissed.I screamed for her thus earning a lot of looks of disbelief cause no thought that I could be so pissed.They thought I was too good..... Anyway, Chryz called her and I told Chryz that I wanted to scream at her. Quote,"Chryz:You're in for it now.... Me: Get the hell here right now or else I will fucking kill you!" Followed by me switching the phone off.10 mins later, no show. Call again. Basically same thing. She sent SMS to Chryz saying that she'll be back in half an hour.I left to go find her. Yi Ping came after me saying that I had better not kill "her". Those of you who were there now know that it isn't a good thing to piss me off. I was, in the words of Yi Ping, homicidal. I found her and wanted to kill her but Mag said no. So unfortunately she still lives. She even apologised to Chryz and not to me! Screw her.... Today was extremely emotional. We were shouting, screaming and crying. We were just pissed that's all. But all in all, one good thing came out of today. I found out who my real friends are. You guys know who you are. I shan't embarass you guys....
Yi Ping,Chryz,Mag: Thanx for listening.Dun't noe what I'd do without you guys. I mite have actually killed her if you guys didn't stop me.I noe that I'm not exactly the easiest person to hang around with but thanx for hanging with me. Mag, everything will go perfectly fine on that day, dun't worry. Sides it's 6 days away. only 3 more sessions for being told what to do by u noe who. Chill, it'll be fine. Thanx for everything you guys. I owe you.I really do.
Friday, July 22, 2005 / 6:16 PM
Wake up every morning.
Wondering why I'm here.
Recalling the past day's events,
my heart is filled with fear.
I hide it as I do with everything else.
The tears and the pain.
Wondering if I'll get left behind,
it's hell all over again.
You knew how much I was hurting.
And yet you walked away.
You chose to follow everyone else.
And left me alone that day.
And all the days that followed,
not a word was said.
So you left staring at the world
wishing I was dead.
Just cause I'm different.
That I don't do things your way.
You talk bad about me behind my back.
You talk bad about me in front of my face.
You'll never know how much you've hurt me.
You'll never know how much I've cried.
You only see what you want to see.
A person that should have died.
Wrote this during LD. For those of you who don't believe that I can be sucidal, I suggest you think again. For those of you who know why I'm so pissed, thanx for listening.
Yi Ping aka Sam: Thanx for giving me a shoulder to cry on. Thanx for listening.
Chryz aka Tina: Thanx always.
Tuesday, July 19, 2005 / 12:44 PM
Thought you were my friend.
Not a fucking backstabber.
Not a bloody hypocrite.
I realise my mistake now.
I was too bloody nice.
I was so bloody nice that I became a fucking doormat.
But hey, it's not like you backstabbed me in my face.
Oh wait, you did.
Now I'm invisible.
In the shadows of life.
People telling me that I don't have a life.
People telling me that I don't deserve a life in this world.
Losing this fight.
Trying to keep my tears inside.
Losing the will the win.
You knew me better than the rest.
So you knew how to hurt me.
How to make break my soul.
Maybe I should die.
It's not like anyone's gonna miss me.
Sucidal thoughts come to my mind.
Whats the point of living when you're all alone?
When nobody cares.
Guess you're happy now.
Seeing my tears falling down my face.
Putting on a facade.
Smiling when inside I'm deciding.
Whether or not I should live.
I'm still deciding.
Crying.
Hurting.
Deciding.
And no one knows.
Hiding.
Invisible.
Shadows of life.
A reflection of my former self.
To sum up who I am, I have only 3 words.
Burnt beyond recognition.
Monday, July 11, 2005 / 3:28 PM
Let the rain fall from the sky.
Let my tears fall from my eyes.
Let them see how much they've hurt me.
Let them see how much I've cried.
Let them how much I'm hurting inside.
Thursday, July 07, 2005 / 3:30 PM
Thought I could trust you but I guess I was wrong.
Thought you were my friend.
Guess I was wrong about that too.
Monday, July 04, 2005 / 9:29 AM
Alone,Waiting.
Cold to the bone.
Nothing happens.
Time passes by.
Nobody notices the girl lying there.
They just go on with their lives.
Not noticing how she cries.
Up until someone came along and noticed her.
He cared about what happens to her unlike the rest.
But when he approaches her,there is no sound.
That's when he sees the tears on her face.
He tries to wake her but to no avail.
He realises then that he's too late.
There was nothing anyone could do to save her.
People heard her story, all feeling guilty at some point or another.
The girl who died because no one cared.
Because no one noticed her.
They came to her funeral all in tears.
But it was too late.
She watched from the heavens, finally at peace.
"Why do they cry? Why bother now that I'm gone? You try to make up for leaving me there but there's nothing you can do. All the tears in the world won't help. If you wish to cry for me, cry when I live."
"Cause now it's too late."
Friday, July 01, 2005 / 12:00 PM
I have no life........
