All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players.
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts.
Monday, April 25, 2005 / 3:19 PM
I HATE MY FUCKED UP CLASS!I always thought that I was in a class but it turns out that I'm actually in a fucked up place where most of the people backstab,betray,bitch,are so damn fake in everything they say and/or do,care only for themselves and their friends and are superficial in both thought and word.Today started off like any other day.Everything else happened after recess.You see,I got up to class and saw some stuff written on the board abt Adeline Tay.Despite the fact tt there was no name,it was damn obvious that she was meant to see it.Anyways a bit of it got me pissed.They wrote that she liked all these brand names which was fine but it was what they wrote after that that got me realising how superficial they are.They wrote that she only buys from pasar malams and not from the shops themselves.I mean,what the hell is wrong wif tt? Just cause she ain't as stupid as them to waste all their damn money on branded clothes which cost less somewhere else.Anyways after that,Rachel,Lelsey,Steph,Huda and some other ppl were throwing Hannah's shoes all over the class.Over ppls heads.They were screaming at the top of their lungs,high pitch for some.I am dead serious when I say that I swear that they probably woke the dead!So I yelled at them to SHUT UP! Obviously had no effect.So I told Huda to return the shoe.She said and I quote,"This isn't any of your business Sherry."So I pinched the back of her neck rather painfully and ordered her to give it back which she did.(I noe i shldn't have done tt but I was too damn angry).Anyways after that, Grace,Kathleen,Belinda and Rachel were,as usual, putting a water balloon on Adeline Wong's chair.It was by that time leakin.Not a day goes by that this doesn't happen.And every freakin time the balloon bursts and makes the whole floor wet, then they fill up another balloon and it goes on and on and on.So today I grabed it and threw it in the dustbin gettin alooot of hate words from those lovely ppl.After that I was writing a reply letter to Sarah Natasha when my dear sweet partner(who is constantly playing and everything I do is wrong and everything she does is rite) asked me what I was doing and wad not.Did i mention that she loves to read wad I'm writin even if I say NO? So I'm trying to block out wad I'm writin since it's abt the class and how fucked up it is but guess wad she read the first bit which says how fucked up it is.I didn't noe tt until durin sci when my lovely partner who I wld love to kill rite now told I think,pratically the whole damn class.I was at the lab wif some other ppl when a girl came down and told us to go bac up as sci was held in class.When I walked in I could hear some ppl talking abt me.Didn't really care at first.Then after science,BIATCH AKA LESLEY was talking shit abt me on the way to assembly,during assembly and after assembly.I didn't noe tt she was allowed out of her cage in the zoo yet.Yiping and Regina keep tellin me to ignore them but how can I? I HAVE NEVER,IN THE LAST TWO YEARS,BELONGED TO THIS FUCKED UP CLASS! Maybe cause I ain't like ya'll! Anyways,damn pissed now.Thinkin abt complainin.Not just abt hs but abt some other things to.Sighs.So screwed.I can only imagine what the next couple of days are gonna be like.But hey,fuck them.Whatever.They just need their bottles and pacifiers for the next couple of days.That's all. (:
Monday, April 18, 2005 / 3:42 PM
Hey guys.I noe I haven't updating lately but i've just been doing some thinking.About some stuff.Anyways I wrote this while I was doing some thinking during class time.
A person has stoped wandering.
His shadow has started listening to fear.
Alone he wandered,through the green grass of spring,the hot summer rays,
the fallen leaves of a golden red autmn and the icy cold of winter.
Wandering,lost,waiting to be found.
His heart broken by another,cold to the bone.
His cries go unaswered.
His presence is non-existent.
He begins to realise that he's not really there.
That the world doesn't realise he exists.
That's when he realises the truth.
About what he is.
Dead yet Alive.
I guess that now,more than ever,I realise that I'm invisible.I mean no one really notices me unless they want something from me.Plus,one of my ex best friends wants to be friend again,saying that she never truly treasured our friendship and what not.I dun't believe her.I mean even after she gave that letter,she still avoids me and neva talks to me.Why believe something u noe will neva happen?
Neva noticed before how FAKE some of my classmates are.They think so highly of themselves thinking that they are the best and all that but they're not.They are just plain annoying,irritating and fake.But hey I dun't care if they see this post.It's not like they realise that I exist in class so why should I exist out of school hours?They think that I'm deaf and blind just like them but guess what? I'm not! I can hear and see what goes on in my class which includes, when u wish to talk bad about me, because I chose to scream at you fuckers to SHUT THE FUCK UP! U noe if there isn't a teacher in class,as in the teacher is absent or course,you'll always see groups of people hanging with each other.Who am I with you may ask if you are actually reading this post? By myself.The only person by herself.Reading a book or writing 'sumthing' on my foolscap.Oh yeah did I mention that the word PRIVACY has no meaning in my class? After I finish writing a song or a poem,my classmates will take it and show their friends and they have all the loveliest comments in the world.Like they can do better.Sighs.Life is too fucked up at the moment.Screwed.Only one thing left to say.FUCK OFF YOU FUCKING FAKES!
Wednesday, April 13, 2005 / 3:40 PM
Hey ya'll! Just added the music video It's like that to the blog.Anyways,had LD yesterdae.It was fun as always.Todae is SYF.Gd luck SYF gals! So,got scolded by cikgu,well,actually,the whole class got scolded cause we were too talkative.I dun't noe if it's bad luck or sumthin but I'm always in a noisy class.Plus i wasn't talkin at all.Change of subject.Jess and I were gonna take a taxi back home from philips side when Lesley,Hidayah n Joy came next to us and said they wanted to take a taxi too.We were 'in front' of them by less than an inch.So i told them tt we were takin taxi back as well.Didn't think tt they were paying attention.So I told Jess to walk further in front and within 30 seconds a taxi came and guess what? We got the taxi.Lesley was like 'wad the hell' and all tt crap. See ppl,this is wad happens when u don't pay attention.Since we're in topic of classmates here's sumthin else tt happened.My partner in class is so annoyin.She's constantly playin wif the other person next to her(aisle between) and neva pays attention sumtimes.So I was almost constantly on her back todae.And other ppl's as well.And in malay class,I sit next to Sarah Natasha n Huda(I'm in between)Sarah N. has Steph on her side as well.In the front row is frm left to rite,Valerie,Keshveen,Debo and Gabby.So Debo n Gabby are pretty cool and I like sitting next to Sarah Natasha(she helps me wif my malay n other stuff plus she's pretty cool)but it's just the noise i can't take.You can hear steph n huda argueing sumtimes and val,steph n kesh are constantly talkin and huda as well.It's gets so frustrating sumtimes.I also realised sumthin todae I neva noticed before but I realised tt sum of my friends are fakes.They act like they want to be yr friend just so they can get gossip and wad not.I also realised tt the only time I exist in my form class is when I have gr8 food to share.Otherwise you'll c all these groups of ppl standing ard and talkin and one gurl who's doin absolutely nothin except writin on her foolscap.What's she writin?Song lyrics and poems which are mostly found in the hands of sumone else sharin it wif every1 else.Have any of you heard of privacy?Doubt it.Have malay tuition now.Tkcare guys.Ciao!
Monday, April 11, 2005 / 3:15 PM
Hey guys,haven't been updatin for awihle.Exams are comin up.So sad.According to my mum,I have to pass every single subject, OR ELSE! I am therefore screwed.Sighs.I found out the other day tt tis yr's sec 1's are damn rude,annoyin and slutty.Honestly.No offense but this is majority. Anyways,Fridae was a day I hope I never have to go through again.Ya'll noe abt the friendster thing abt my class rite? Well, let's see.It was gossip central. Rumors abt spot check and wad not. Plus a little gossip abt u noe who.Anyways, it was damn annoyin and irritating and wad not.Saturdae was okay.Sunday was fine.Today was...... aiite.Those who don't noe this by now, I have a boring life.Gotta blaze.Later!
